Hey guys. Long time no see? Talk? Post? I don’t know. It’s just been a really long time and that’s sorta where this is coming from. Less than a month ago I graduated college with a bachelor’s degree in Public Relations/Advertising with a minor in History. I’m so extremely proud of everything that I’ve learned and who I’ve become during these past 4 years, but to say I feel weird is an understatement.
Before and during finals everything was nonstop and extremely busy. I felt like there wasn’t even enough time in the day to breathe and all I wanted was time to do the things that I love. I thought about how each day post graduation would be filled with things to do and tasks to accomplish that would bring me closer to not only finding a job within the industry, but also fulfilling my own dreams and aspirations. Now, all I have is time and for whatever reason I truly can’t bring myself to do any of it. It’s such a strange feeling to go from constantly being busy to just suddenly, nothing. I’m the type of person who needs to stay creative and busy in order to keep myself from spiraling and losing my mind. The big problem this time around is that I don’t have the motivation or inspiration to do any of that. So guess who’s sorta lost her mind.
I know what I need to do to get out of this funk, but it feels like I can’t do it. The thought of doing anything more than laying in bed and watching Netflix or listening to music seems as overwhelming, if not more, than studying for any final I’ve ever had. Even now, just writing this post feels like climbing Mt. Everest. I’m tired of feeling uninspired and unmotivated and scared. There’s no point in hiding away, afraid to start this next chapter of life. I want to run towards it at full speed and so far it’s only been a slow and pitiful crawl.
So this is sorta what my hopes are with this post. I’m trying to kick my ass into gear, get these creative juices flowing, and to stop feeling so damn sorry for myself. I want to feel that spark again and to go after the things that I know I want. I wish this was one of those moments when I can say “hey look how great my life is, look at all the cool things I’m doing, and how successful I am.” And I really wish I had some inspirational advice, but all I can offer right now is letting you know that you’re not alone if you’re feeling like this and hopefully I can feel like I’m not alone too.
These are the Tame Impala songs, wasn’t kidding with the title
*Yes I’m Changing*
****New Person, Same Old Mistakes****
The Less I Know The Better
‘Cause I’m a Man
Let It Happen
Feels Like We Only Go Backwards
List of People (To Try and Forget About)